Pessimism/Realism

It's starting to set in just how little people care about the wellbeing of others. Usually when I blog I'm not straight to the point. For my own taste, it's pretty cringey looking at it, even if it's honest. Maybe I've been too hopeful. I'll try not to repeat myself too much like I have in the past. I try to not be a critic, I try to be happy-go-lucky, but it seems being a critic can be useful, especially when applied to myself. People don't usually listen to criticism anyway.

 

People seem to have this idea in their head of how they and others are. I've witnessed lots of habits from others, and I compare that to myself. I understand that I usually am more self-aware and more self-critical, at least in certain ways. Obviously like everyone else I have my blind spots, and to what degree I have them in comparison to others is a variable that neither I or anyone else can put a number on- but life is too big to put a number on something like that anyway. It seems like we're all just winging it here and even though scientists claim we have it all figured out I feel that the pursuit of knowledge is limitless... which is probably for the best. The amount of knowledge that we have is laughable at the face of infinity.

 

I've learned that, for one reason or another, people are manipulative. The reasons for this are infinite. They could have good or bad intentions. Even trying to determine or describe what manipulation at its core is, brings to light the fact that no one really knows what it means. Some words, probably most words even, are too broad to be taken as seriously as they are. Most people don't know what they're talking about and usually just regurgitate their opinions from others. Most people don't understand that just because an opinion is popular doesn't mean it's true. Most things that we believe to be true we don't really know for sure. The more tangible the subject is, the better that subject is for our personal understanding and truth. Theoretical information can be useful sure, but only when it's applied in a way that has noticeable results.

 

It seems the worse you perform and survive in this world, the more you'll be punished. The better you get at achieving your goals, the more momentum you have to continue upwards. That seems like a shitty system, it seems simple at first until you realize just how much harder you have to work when you're at the bottom of the ladder. It shouldn't be easier to maintain what you have the further you go up the ladder, it should be the other way around. If I'm having a tough time and I wasn't given the best cards then I should have much more resources available to me to get ahead. Then again, this comes into play your definition and opinions on the sources and essence of motivation.

 

I guess I'm just confused. I'm lost, and I don't understand things as much as I thought I did, but that's probably a good thing, and it's honestly pretty humbling. Comforting.

 

Well if you made it this far, thanks for reading. Have a good day.