Feelings

Sometimes, you feel something. And you're not sure if you should feel exactly what it is that you're feeling. But you feel that emotion in response to a thought in your head. One of the reflexes to something like that, if you feel like you shouldn't feel the way you do, is to try and get rid of the thought or get rid of the emotion.

Sometimes, you feel trapped with this thought, and you fight everything you can to get rid of that thought.

Sometimes, the thoughts overwhelm you just because other people don't approve of something that you're thinking about, and it makes that specific idea so much more interesting. So much more alluring. The idea of it being forbidden makes you wanna chase it more.

...

The best thing you can do, is to take the thought as far as you can.

Think about it so much, so much in your head, that you realize how you actually feel about it. Allow yourself to feel an emotion without any regard for how other people might feel about it.

Once you do, you start to truly come to think about a situation for how you actually feel about it deep down. When you contemplate a thought for an extended period of time, you get to watch your body go through different emotional states and see how you would feel about the situation as a whole versus in a particular instance.

You will come to realize, that the thoughts with the least resistance, open up your mind. When you let go of the anxiety of thinking about something, or how you might feel about something or how other people might feel about it, you naturally achieve inner peace and let something go. You'll start to form a singular core feeling about it, which is rooted in other feelings.

Relationships aren't just about holding hands, kissing, being intimate, and being cute together. It's a lifestyle change, and it's up to you on whether you feel someone has the same lifestyle change as you. Sure, attraction is important. But your life is also really important and if you're going to include ANY person in your life, you need to make sure that they're going to help nourish and inspire you. They're going to help improve your life in a positive way.

There are things in your life that you never ever want to give up and you have to absolutely make sure that those are things that you never sacrifice in a relationship. Whether it's personal space, your friends, your interests, your family, or how you live your life the way that you do, whatever is important to you, you have to make sure that you don't bring someone into your life that has the power to influence you to stop.

Living in the present is incredibly important. It's easier to do that once you've confronted your feelings. Be honest with yourself. Feel whatever "this feeling" is without putting a label on it. If people ask you how you feel, you can tell them "I can't put it into words".

I kicked out my friend last night. She had a key for a couple days and we technically didn't break the lease by letting her stay with us for a couple nights (maximum is at least 14 days). But anyways, we kicked her out knowing she might not have a stable environment to go to, and we brought her in because we knew she had been in an unstable environment. Long story short it was too risky to let her live there with us, and she was changing things around too much. So I kicked her out, felt shitty about it, but luckily another one of her friends took her in and everything's okay. Thank god.

Sleep is nice. It's hard to not let that be the only thing to do.

Through my experiences with my own thoughts, I've realized I like everything in my life to be peaceful. I like peace. And I like being able to do whatever I want whenever I want. I like a vibe, a combined feeling of interconnected forces in my life working together. So I guess what you could say is every single thing I do in my life, I think about how it affects every other thing in my life because everything eventually connects together. I make sure things are peaceful and fun and loving. Things can be exciting, but I don't want stressful. Everything I do every day is incredibly important because everything affects me. I guess what I'm saying is, your soul sort of guides what you do in your life so that the actions in your life match your soul so you feel inner peace. Your thoughts and your actions are guided by your soul.

Some people's souls push them to become serial killers. My soul on the other hand consists of empathy. That's part of why I like peace, because when other people are relaxed, so am I. At the end of the day, I make sure that other people feel happy. I, a lot of the time, feel responsible for other peoples' happiness. So I make sure that what I do never makes someone feel sad or uncomfortable. But I know that I can't always control that, and lately I've been working on self-love and self-happiness. It's not selfish or bad to be self-caring or self-confident.I can't help other people if I don't help myself first.